11:51 a.m. - 06.19.10

All Good Things...

Erin and i are getting a divorce. trust me; it's not something i'm happy about. however, i love her so fiercely and completely that i want her to be happy. everyone that's involved with this has their hands dirty in some way. i should have listened to my wife when she told me about the bad habits that i was collecting and kicked them when she asked me to instead of procrastinating. i was so complacent.

unfortunately the changes i've wrought over the last few weeks have come too late. i still cling to the fool's hope that i'll be able to hold her in my arms and have her look at me the way she used to; the way she looks at her new lover. i still cling to this fool's hope for the time being, despite the fact that it's a foregone conclusion.

things are amicable between us for the time being, and i don't think that they'll cease being amicable. really the only way this is going to work is if the three of us are friends. He's actually been really helpful and has been instrumental in keeping me balanced. He makes Erin happy. i have my son whom i treasure. i still have erin as a close friend.

the story here has largely come full circle since i started writing here eight years ago. the story was very much one of my recovery, falling in love, getting married, and having my wildest dreams come true. i think that story is now complete. the few left who still read this know how to get in touch with me.

though it truly breaks my heart:
All good things must come to an end.